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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 03:56

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

And i lived it daily.

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All the time i was locked up.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

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And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

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BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

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She loved him until the end.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

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I write beautiful poetry .

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I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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And who doesn’t know suffering?

Who then, do I blame.?

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As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

On the 31st of Jan this month .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

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I couldn’t, believe it.

Why did i forgive my father ?

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I think the readers, may guess!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was seconnd youngest,

Im still living with it.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Would this be the day?

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I was very sick at this time too.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Comes on , in middle age.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

My life is so biszare .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

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Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Put me off passion for life!!

I waited trembling.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

So whats the point in blame.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He resisted the act ,that day.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

But, we were locked up after school.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I was scared of men, in general

Ive learnt so much.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

One cannot live in the past .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She married twice! .

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

She was in good health!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

It was going to be , some day.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I have no regrets .

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

What did i know ?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

When she asked me how she looked .

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

She found it foreign!.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I will be 64.

We were not on the streets..

Especially a lifetime of it.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Was to survive, this bastard.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

So, i spoilt her more .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I don,t even have a pension.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

But it wasn’t much.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

But ive been too sick for many years..

I said to her

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I was 9 years of age.

I could never make a relationship work though!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I had hoped to write a book about this .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

This is soul school!.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He knew the spot.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

My family never makes their pension either.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

She wouldn,t have been !

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